好男人,坏男人

"other than you n wilson,i think theres no other good guys left in mandarin."
"you are really a nice guy"

tts wat qianna tol me e other day when i visited her at her wrkplace in far east.
i took it as a compliment.
it was smthing i always hear.
bt then agn,good guys usually dies early
nobody would remb them
but e bad guys,
no matter hw bad they are
they will always be remembered.
n they always outlived e good guys.
life is just this unfair.

"男人不坏,女人不爱"

tts hw true e words are.
no matter hw good i am to you,
it juz wasnt any use.
i will nt be remember.
e things i took time off,
juz to prepare,wanted to cheer u up,
will nv be seen.
it our last week tgt.
i juz wanna treat u well
treat u rite.
still in my own way.

after this..
juz let me be e bad guy
this time....

自由的飛

it wont b special anymore.
coz im nt e person tt u wan.
to spent tt special day with you.
it doesnt matter anymore.
i accept e fact.
i know once i left,i will nv turn back anymore
as long you are happy n fine
im contented
i will nt stand in ur way,
im letting you fly.

sorry..

放开手是我最後的温柔

如果你能飞得 快乐自由

这疼痛 并不算什麽

守护天使

listening to: Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

life always have twists.
u will never ever know when it decided to play a joke on u.
i never knew..it would.
fate?
faith?
beliefs?
i used to believe in them.
nt anymore.
e days are nearing.
e devil had look at me and smile.
i been damaged...hard.
im picking myself up.
i will nv meet my guardian angel.
i know.

冰冷的大雨

Feeling annoyed.

i went for a run.
long run n i stopped for a breather.
itz raining heavily agn.
my heart is feeling heavy as well.
i stood in e rain n drench myself.
feeling e cold rain on my face.
it seem like teardrops trickling down my face.
but i know i haven cried in years
therfore it wasnt.it felt like it.
facing adversity once more.
but itz e cold hard truth i need to accept.
e rain nv seems to stop as i stood alone.
it always difficult when u know e truth.
living in my own lie,
lying to myself agn n agn.
i faced it before,
i will do it agn.
e rain was clearing my mind
wash my thoughts
drench my heart.
drown my sorrows.

gods are crying for me
crying for my unconditional love
e devil is laughing at me,
laughing at my stupidity

i wished i cld have tears.
so tt i cld cry my heart out.
but i know i cldnt anymore..
watz e use of feeling sad?
im nothing,not impt,worthless.

it juz wasnt meant to be..

"there is nothing either good or bad,

but thinking makes it so.

William Shakespeare"

沈默的疼痛

我沈默 不代表我不痛
我不痛 眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受 安静忍受安静看你走
你说我 很适合当朋友
你说我 总是会听你说
你说别太难过 保持联络有空的时候
把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身後 眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头
把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最後的温柔
如果你能飞得 快乐自由
这疼痛 并不算什麽
想挽留　却为什麽点头
我不懂　连我都不懂
我如果说的太少　爱的太多
有谁能够懂
什麽千言万语拥挤我的宇宙
让我震耳欲聋
有多少爱　就有多少沈默的疼痛

站在十字路口,一个人

slept for another few hrs..
once again feeling so tired
i really dont noe why this sudden feeling coming over me again
made my day bad again once more.
e ranting of my mum at e kids,
getting to my nerves.

my mind is in a twirl.
cant clear my head
mayb itz e days without wrk.
i hate to stay at hm..
nothing but rotting away.
wat e hell is wrong with me?

concentration at e lowest point.
future undecided
friends in need of help
im tired already.
i shld stop at this point
think thru things again.
things shld come to an end btw us.
mayb..juz mayb..

i need to be alone....

晴天

listening to: Aerosmith - i don't wanna miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

When you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this momment forever

Every moment I spend with you , is a moment I treasure.........

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep cause I miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do I still miss you babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

If it's me you're seeing

And then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you

In this moment forever , forever and ever..........

I don't wanna miss one smile

I don't wanna miss one kiss

I just want to be with you right here with you just like this

I just wanna hold you close

Feel your heart go close to mine

And you'll stay here in this moment

for all the rest of time.........

闷到...Part II

Outside Catering:
Istana

think most probably we had broken e record for most attended functions in istana.
we were there on wed,thur n we will b out again for pre-setup today.lastly we will be working for e function on sunday once more.
4-days in 1 week.

e previous day was relatively quite easy as it was chinese dinner.it didnt took us v.long to do e setup.dinner was quite fast n over in a flash as there was only 6 course on e menu.nothing really too special.

today was even faster than yesterday for our setup.coz most of e difficult stuff we had alr done previous nite.it was all e way slacking around.thomas n i were thinking n doing really stupid stuffs to kill our boredom.agnes were really quite occupied by her harry potter story book.we were playing with rings n lighter,having bets on breakfast,lunch,dinner n supper.e boredom was really draining us.usually we wld be carrying,rolling,pushing tbles n chair.but we were extremely too fast.n with ppl like wilson around,itz always difficult tt u cant meet e set-up timing.

thou nwadays sm ppl were treating us quite nice,itz still down to we were really fed up at always being taken advantage of.we ranted.bcoz we were paid e same,it juz nt fair tt these ppl always waited for e 2 of us to clear their shit for them.we are humans aso.so we juz wanted fairness.

but of course if they themselves are aso helping,i definitely will have no compliains in doing my job.if they are nothing but juz talk,they really dont deserve my respect at all.

random pics:

lollipop on e 1st day of istana..

guess whos lying on e table?

ans:itz mohd hakim!eating snake..haha.caught!

can guess we were really bored X100000!..lol

爱自己

Horoscope for August 6, 2008

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

Your growing sense of self worth has come from deep within you, and that's why it is so strong and meaningful. Now, if your self worth was built only on compliments or other people validating your achievements, then it wouldn't be as solid. But you've taken risks and proven to yourself that you rock -- and you rock hard. So have no fears that you will lose your confidence just because you stumble here or there. You're made of stronger stuff than that, so have faith in yourself!


stronger?definitely...

那些日子

Reading a novel out of boredom

"那些日子"

a little paragraph frm e book:

你还带着那些美丽的回忆睡着吗?

还是不需要那些假象欺骗自已了吧

时光总是短暂 心里藏着遗憾

遗憾变成我们的牵绊

我知道认识你爱上你

了解你 看穿你 并不简单

可是离开你 失去你 忘记你

我又该怎么办

尤其时常在梦中有你作伴

总教人在梦与醒之间两难

我知道原谅你 放纵你

包容你 疼爱你 其实不难

我也比较坦然

在这虚幻城市中无人陪伴

我只好在爱与恨之间离散

早习惯不能回头的付出

风在哭当我走到悬崖停驻

发觉泪也有温度

生命太短促痛太清楚

才让你让我爱到无退路

我不管爱落向何处

我只求今生今世共度

天已荒 海已枯 心留一片土

连泪水都能灌溉这幸福

我不管爱葬身何处

我只求陪你直到末路

月已残 灯已尽 夜黑人模糊

这一生因为爱你才清楚

不是说好,要永远在一起的吗?

我怀念的

Quote:

"They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to appreciate them,

a day to love them,

but then an entire life to forget them."

记得那片星空

最美的烟火

谁爱得太自由

谁要走我的心

谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变沉重

谁忘了要给你温柔

我还有想要爱你的冲动

影子

我们曾爱的疯狂
为追求感觉就拼命去闯
我们曾太过健忘
来不及珍惜
徒增了悲伤
是谁习惯了对方
才让平淡推翻了过往
从今路不再一样 未来不再能分享
曾给的承诺却还在心上
我们曾后悔失望
争执的藉口太冠冕堂皇
我们曾遍体麟伤失去了交集
也失去方向
不用再害怕因我们踏著相同的步伐
我选择这样去守护跟随陪伴你流浪
我的爱捧著你往自由去飞翔
若你面向下个夕阳 迎接幸福光芒
我当影子慢慢拉长
如果你累或孤单 需要力量
回过头我永远会在身旁
前方的你永远在我心上


im juz forever a shadow in ur life.

什么东东??

Horoscope for August 2, 2008
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)


A new relationship is going along swimmingly, and you want to keep it going that way! To do so, slow down. You need to be going slowly enough with your communication to be able to hear the small details of what the other person is talking about. They are leaving you clues here and there that will come in handy when you really want to impress them, later. If you can remember what they said or a preference they mentioned, you'll show them how much they mean to you in a wonderful way.

什么东东,连老天都在玩我meh??

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