冰冷的大雨

Feeling annoyed.

i went for a run.
long run n i stopped for a breather.
itz raining heavily agn.
my heart is feeling heavy as well.
i stood in e rain n drench myself.
feeling e cold rain on my face.
it seem like teardrops trickling down my face.
but i know i haven cried in years
therfore it wasnt.it felt like it.
facing adversity once more.
but itz e cold hard truth i need to accept.
e rain nv seems to stop as i stood alone.
it always difficult when u know e truth.
living in my own lie,
lying to myself agn n agn.
i faced it before,
i will do it agn.
e rain was clearing my mind
wash my thoughts
drench my heart.
drown my sorrows.

gods are crying for me
crying for my unconditional love
e devil is laughing at me,
laughing at my stupidity

i wished i cld have tears.
so tt i cld cry my heart out.
but i know i cldnt anymore..
watz e use of feeling sad?
im nothing,not impt,worthless.

it juz wasnt meant to be..

"there is nothing either good or bad,

but thinking makes it so.

William Shakespeare"