天使与魔鬼

frustration,anger.

i had a very bad afternoon.my temper was triggered.
it totally snapped.i dont wish to blog it down.
i juz ranted at joseph pua.plz ask ur wife to come back to work.
'i will confirm then let u know"
tt is simply not a ans i wish to hear.plz bloody hell ask her
to come back n take back e shop.i simply doesnt want any part
of it anymore.
e last straw was u actually ask me to hack care,when e function
actually started early than usual.u juz simply dont understand
hw impt mandarin is to me.these is my family n u are
asking me to leave my family members at lurch when
they needed me.
tts why u will never,or ever deserved to be respected.
i will never respect u in my whole life.coz u r nt fitted to be.

as when i reached e brm,it was alr in a chaotic state.
i didnt noe where to start,as dinner was alr serve 3 quarter
of e courses.i was simply lost...
n it doesnt help much as joseph pull me out to set MCT.
n as so he ignited my fury.i didnt bother abt him
ns i do my own setting by myself.

n as i went down to take stuff frm brm,i met daniel
in e staff lift.he was taking dessert to brm.he was
quite surprised i was here n nt wrking in brm.
well i didnt explain myself much as my mood was swinging.
so i juz tol him to treat my sister nicely n never try to bully her
coz shes my only sister n i doted on her.
i wld simply nt allow any1 to hurt her.
i made a mistake once,no chance in hell i wld let it happen
a 2nd time.i juz hope he was nt scared off by my tone.
if it does,i will apologise.

returned to brm after i completed my set-up,it was almost
serving e last course.i noe im nt in e state to serve e vips.
afraid to kill any1 in e process i juz pickup n leave it to
agnes n yanbin to do e service,while i try to recollect myself.
i lost e motivation to wrk this whole nite.
too much thoughts ran thru my mind.
do i still deserved to be called a vip server?

其实很羡慕妹妹，因为她找到了工做的原动力。
现在的她每天都会开心得笑着，
我也替她开心。。
女生是向外的。有一天她就不需要我再守护她。

现在的我已经失去工做的原动力。
曾经是因为"她"，但我已经没有她了。
我还能依靠什么，继续下去。
我迷失了自己。找不道任何的原动力，
继续工做。。

isolated...
回到家好安静。。
等下一个天亮