我要的自由。

work:

Shandan is finally back today!!
miss her quite alot for e past 2 weeks.
itz like missing a left hand everytime i wrk.
finally itz bk to a familiar feeling agn.
it will ony be another 2 days n she wld be
leaving for home.=(
worst thing is im gonna wrk mct on her last day.
n she requested for me to come brm to be her runner.
hw can i possibly reject n disappoint her??
sorry scott,thou i love u but i love shandan much more.
so i gonna "panseh" u on sunday..=P

tdy was really really very slack.
we had 4 vip tbls n we had shandan,agnes
weijie n shawn serving while i was e spare.
but 1 tbl vip was nt open n it was 5ppl to 3 tbles.
how slack can u get??we cld even take turns
to clear,pick-up n even eat in e kitchen.
n we had regulars staying for ot.n things were
done pretty quickly without instructions passing out
coz basically,every1 noes wat shld be done.
and e reward?1 hr of rest before we finally head for hm.

anw,i feel im bk to myself,as in juz like when i 1st came
into mandarin.theres a bunch of new regulars out there
which i dont really noe.n i don bother to noe them.
juz like when i was starting to work for bqt.
i was by myself n i dont tok to these ppl.coz i juz feel
i wanna keep my life simple nw.i dont nd another mess
agn,to turn my world upside down.

i noe i will nv have e same heartbeat like before.
i will nv be e same agn anymore.
im free frm worries.
shandan will be away for 3 weeks,
qianna shld have gt a solution to her prob.
lil agnes is well taken care of nw.
as for me..i juz wanna be set free.

我相信那时的决定没有错。
也相信自己的眼光和感觉。
因为现在的她每天都很开心。
那时帮妹妹拿电话是没错的。
现在她学会了放下，往前走，也长大了。
我不用在守护着她，因为我相信
他可以做得更好，好好的照顾她。
这一次她会快乐和幸福。=)

而我决定不再爱了，心冰封了。
很平静。感觉好老了，累了。
除非我的心还能被感动，
要不然我绝对不会再心动。
曾经有过心动，心疼，心痛的感觉，
但现在很害怕会有这些感觉。
所以我只想拥有现在的简单。
因为真的老了。。