死神

真的受伤了

till nw i can still clearly remb wat happened last nite.e brush with death was so close.

was leaving with heavy steps.saw a cab stop rite beside me.it seems to ask me to board n go home.

i boarded e cab at boat quay 3.18am.

cabby:when to sir?

me:toa payoh plz.

cabby:u want to go by which way?

me:anyway,juz get me there..fast (i wasnt too friendly)

cabby:go by cte can?

me.yes..juz go uncle.. (i juz wanted to leave e area n go
home)

e cabby keep on talking,i wasnt listening,my mind wasnt payin attention to his conversation.i juz look at my handphone.

i was on my way home.e driver was speedin n i dont really understand watz e rush.anyway i didnt cared,my mood wasnt on his speed meter.as long he sent me home,tts alrite.i was in deep thoughts.i held on tight to my handphone looking at my sms.i didnt noe wat i wanted reply.all i remb is when i looked up i saw this vehicle infront of us,it started to swerve to one side n it seems e driver lost control of his car.

he hit e E-BRAKE suddenly.

my cabby jammed his...

my cabby steer his vehicle left n managed to avoid a head on collision..but he still collided with e vehicle left rear.wind screen cracked n e cabby was shocked as he sat in his seat,seat belt protected.e impact was still big enough to pull my body forward as i wasnt with seat belt.i reacted quickly n use my left hand to absorb e impact n prevented myself frm being thrown to e front.all i remb was whole 56kg of me crashing into my left hand.i still gt hit on my forehead by e front seat head rest.e impact was quick.,i drop back to my seat after e impact.opened e door n staggered out.

i felt giddy.must b frm e impact to my head.i felt e pain in my wrist.it seems broken as e numbness went thru my arm,i cldnt wiggle my fingers.sat on e pavement n saw e damaged vehicles.taxi front rite crushed,vehicle left rear crushed.both drivers unhurt.suffered bruises.passing vehicle stopped n help.they asked if im alrite,still suffering frm aftershock,my mind still dazed.i tol them im ok,juz feeling giddy n i might had twisted my wrist.tol me help is on e way.

waited 15mins n TP arrived.they checked e damaged vehicles n checked on us.medics arrived on as well.we were all taken to hospital to treat our injuries.

TP left after taking our statements.e doc checked on my wrist.no broken bones,no dislocation.juz a twist n mayb teared muscles.(yes,wrist has muscles as well).thks to my quick reflexes i prevented worst injuries.e doc advise me to be put under observation for a day as e giddiness i felt must be e impact to my head.afraid tt i might be suffering frm sm concussion.suggested x-ray.if ok i wld b discharged e same day.so as i needed to stay,theres only 1 person i cld call at this hr,6.15am,my brother.he was shocked but he rushed down upon hearing i was involved in a accident.

he did e neccessary paperworks while i changed into e ugly looking clothes they provided.really ugly..i begged my bro to bring me a fresh set of clothes when he come by today.

i looked at my handphone once more,it was still on e reply screen.blanked.i forgotten wat i wanted to reply.i pressed back n into my inbox.

3.25am:"im really sorry :("

i saw a 2nd unread msg,it was sent moments before e crash

3.53am:"angry with me?"

i was dissappointed more than angry,hurt,but i noe after tonite i wld still forgive her n forget wat happened, i was nver angry with her at all.

i sat on e bed,i really needed her by my side now.but then watz e point?i didnt want her to worry at all.itz almost 8am.nt sure whether im still able to wrk at nite,still need to ask her inform e management.i keyed on e keypad telling her wat happened..tt was e last sms i sent as my phone runs low on batt.i passed my phone to my bro n ask him to bring back to charge. i needed sm peace to rest as my mind has been heavy thinkin e whole nite.i didnt wanted anyone to contact me nw.i didnt want to noe wat happened back there.all i needed nw is rest.

i lied down n stared onto e ceiling.thinking how lucky i was.if e crash was head on i wldnt be here nw.this was e 2nd time i escaped death.1st time was during army days when my amored vehicle almost overturned into a 40m deep trench..it got stuck smhw n we survived.if e sayin was true abt 3 times lucky,i already used up twice.

i almost died,but e god of death didnt want me now.

睡醒了我会忘了一切 所有的恨,痛,伤,都会忘了

"不爱,也是一种爱"

或许我需要时间去领悟它