静,心

today was really a bad day working at act 1.it wasnt e best of weddings for e couple.
complains made:

1. champagne fountain collapsed e before solemnisation starts.camera man accidentally step on e lace.
2. mic wasnt working during solemnisation
3. barman dropped crates of high-ball glasses which caused alot of din
4. there was leaking above e guest table
5. uninvited trouble.

it was juz a bad nite for wilson.dealing with e groom as well with tcc staff showing him attitude.

meanwhile before function starts,ZH approached me,this was e 1st time he look so serious.he say theres smthing he needs my advice.taken aback,he asked me if i had ever quarrel with cher before.tt caught me thinking.so far no was my ans.he was surprised.i was curious n i probed on, does he hav a prob with his gf.he asked me this:

ZH: i asked if she was meetin her friend,she said no,then she msg sm1, i asked her who she is smsing,she juz said u dont hav e right to noe.am i wrong to ask?

me: girls r much more sensitive.they will think tt u don trust her.tt u feel suspicious of her.

ZH: but u wont feel good if u were in my shoes.u can tolerate if cher does this?wont u ask her?

me: i dont restrict her,i gave her all e freedom she needs.i noe shes always smsing her friends.but i dont ask.if i do then a quarrel is unavoidable becoz she wld tink u dont trust her.i rather turn a blind eye coz it wld b stupid to start a quarrel over this.i juz need to tel myself tt i nv did anything wrong behind her n luv her with my heart,to trust her.simple as tt.if u say im don worry or feel jealous at all than u r wrong.any normal guy wld feel jealous,i wont feel good,im no diff.bt i chose 2 hide it.e diff btw u n ur gf n btw me n cher is age.u 2 r of e same age n u must learn to communicate,listen n trust another if u truely love e other party.for me coz im older than her,i hav to give in,she still young,n hav e right to make n noe more friends.this was e right i gave her before we were 2gether.e right to chose as i might nt be e one.if u love tt person with ur heart,u wish for tt person happiness.tts my way of loving her.

ZH: wah..u very good n ur tolerance level very high,this i mus learn frm u.

learn?..i laughed in my heart.it was tough for me to tell him,if u been thru wat i been thru before,u wouldnt actually learn frm me.im a aloof person when i was young.i didnt made many friends before till i attended sec sch to army.i was much quite a loner.im a person wif few words,but i gained this ability in observing ppl n listening to ppl.but i never quite opened myself till i met "her" a few years back.

她曾经是我最爱的人 是她教会我如何去爱
但她也是伤我最深的人 她背叛了我对她的爱

明知道她爱别人
分手时却对我说:
"不要离开我,我爱你"
为什么不让我平静的离开
还要深深的在我的心 捅一刀
但我转身离开时 你流泪
不是舍不得我
而是你舍不得多一个爱你的人
你好自私

我是多余的

till 2day she nv knew e reason why i broke up wif her.i nv explained.coz i silently walk away,frm her life.and frm my heart.

tt was hw i learnt.till nw when i tink back,e hugs n kisses tt used to belong to me,she gave to another right before my eyes.e hurt is still fresh.it seems e wound nv healed.but i dont hate her.coz i nv learnt to hate.she stab me in e heart with her words.becoz her love can b shared by another man.she betrayed my love yet i didnt blame her,i chose to walk away with my pride.i blamed myself rather than her.tts e way i chose to love.it would nv changed.even till nw.

i tol cher before we started,she has e choice to regret.

要是有一天你后悔
跟我说一声就行了
我不会问理由让你离开
因为我真的希望你幸福快乐
这就是我爱你的方式

it was a promise i made.n she made hers telling me she wont regret.but i noe there so much obstacles infront of us.itz a test to our relationship,my tolerance.my patience.i understand her difficulties.i dont wish to add to her difficulties.i nv pressurise her,giving all e freedom n trust to her.i understand hw protective her parents are.it might b a disaster if her parents found out abt us.i learnt to stay away frm her in e open.to avoid running into any1 she knew.i dont hold her hand,i sit apart,i stand apart.itz tough but i learnt.to protect our love.i hav nothing but patience,patience to wait.till when shes ready.coz i noe she has me,whenever she holds my hand.e way she looks at me.im in her heart.

爱情
是人生最难的一堂课 不是每一个人都能理解的

你已经比我幸福
你可以选择爱或不爱我

而我只能选择爱或更爱你